I am one of those that works on one problem at a time. So why is it people believe that I can solve several problems at once? Even though I have told them I am working on one thing at a time. They still toss more things on top of that one to make it look bigger. So it will keep me from working on the first problem.
I try and finish the first one then move on to the next one logically and steadily. Yet, am told it is not enough or good enough because you have not done these yet. I tell them I am not a god and cannot finish all of them at once. No human can do that. We may "think" we can but in the end we can only work on one thing at a time. Even jugglers cannot juggle and fend off an attack from another. They either have to stop juggling and defend themselves or get hit.
I keep saying I am working on this first. Yet get told there are these things that "need" to get done. Yes it would be nice to get to all of them immediately, but like every human on this planet I can but do one thing at a time. No more and no less than another. Now if there were enough of me to take on each task yes I could possibly finish all the problems then. Because there would be enough of me to do so with time left over for other things that crop up.
But again I am only one single individual, not several. I can only do my best at what I am focused on at the time. Yes I can become distracted like any other person. Yes I can forget things like any other person. And yet now when I say that this is so it is now an excuse to keep from remembering or doing things.
Now every time I logically explain my position it is called an "excuse" in a negative way. Yet logic tells me that where one sees it an excuse to me it is truth. Yes there are things I cannot do, and have told others that it is not me to do them even for money. Yet get told,"quit making excuses!"
I have always told the truth no matter the pain that it causes, yet I have become more hesitant to say anything because it could be construed as an excuse again. What is it that causes this schism to make anything truthful or logical to become an excuse.
Yes I would like to move ahead and have things, which means getting work that "feels" right to do. Not just because of money. Yes money is good and helps alleviate some things elsewhere that are problems to be solved.
Money for me has always been a frustration. Mainly because it seems to vanish before I can try and save any of it. Why is it so elusive to try and save money when I can not seem to be able to hold onto it in the first place.
